You may be asking questions, such as:
- ‘Why should I hear a single word Zero says, if ze are challenging my beliefs?’
- ‘Who is Zero to talk as an authority on this?’
Simply put . . . The illusion of life we are led to believe shattered. For the long drawn out, dramatic version as I once viewed it, continue to read.
In more than half a century, I was a victim of and an observer of the darkness in this life of duality in a 3D existence.
Four decades into this ‘tour’ of life, I found myself in the midst of a particularly destructive, abusive, confusing, heart-breaking, soul stealing and timeline tampering experience, whilst playing out the most dramatic, dark and deserate plot in my entire life’s screen play.
During these ‘days of darkness and deception’, – a term that desribes my experiences adequately without lowering my vibration, digging up old and grievous emotions or dishing dirt on what I experienced as nefarious state and governing systems, bodies or services that are suppost to protect. My experience was on the flip side of that and my life as I knew it was essentially destroyed, taking with it any trust in anything outside of myself.
Repeating negative cycles during an isolated and lonely existence that I wished, and actively tried to end many times left me with many RED FLAGS. I became a victim of the broken systems I had been taught to trust. Attempts to take my own life and other serious, accidental scrapes with death’s fatal grasp were to me, surprisingly unsuccessful and left me with deeply profound questions about the meaning of life, my seemingly insignificant role in humanity and what we were being taught and forced to believe. For all I know, and have justification to think so, I am already dead and I am experiencing some existence beyond the grave.
When my ‘troubles’ came to a climax in 2014, (or the day I died) I was armed only with limiting and unskillful emotions, language and reactions which I delivered with solely reactional improvisation during the jaw-dropping, terrifying and unjustly discrediting scenes I was continually being forced into ‘acting out’, at the hands of some mysterious and malevolent force I could not control or fathom out – the ‘why?’ and ‘how?’, could not be explained without contemplating mystical, metaphysical options.
It was as if a war had been waged the essence of my being, my entire character, my state of mind, the theme and tone of my livelong days and everything else I was experiencing in each moment, and as far as I could see into my forseeable future. I was running on basic survival mode trying to fight my way out of a corner I had somehow been backed into, whilst intent on not causing any harm to others. I am a strong experiential believer of Karma – and it seemed I was already ill-fated enough for one life time, T.Y.V.M.!
I continued to exist, daily, and with every new dawn, I prayed for peace and cessation of this mental and physical torment that very given and blessed day, yet received it still filled new and escalating ‘challenges’ that seemed to arise, solely intent on my demise or destruction. This was the fall out from the phenomenon, the one single catalytic event that sparked a disturbing chain of events that rained down on me for almost a decade following.
Yet, with new found awareness and knowledge of ancient teachings, I remain in the energy of unconditional love, forgiveness with a heart that remains trusting and open; faithful and loyal to the light within. I discovered an inner strength I could not conceive when the cracks in ‘reality’ appeared.
It was amidst this time, about three years into this mode of existence that I began to recognise my wisdom – not only by knowledge gained, but also by good judgment, insight and discernment. – The gift I have always had, my connection to nature, spirit and the universe, or God if you will, I only recognised and stepped into in my forties.
Douglas Adams fans might appreciate, that it all became clear to me at the age of 42. Since then, I have dedicated my energy to ending my own suffering and hopefully sharing my awareness with others so they may do the same for themselves.
If you choose to follow my findings no further than this but you are experiencing difficulties in your life, I suggest:
- Change your self talk and learn to love yourself more than no other.
- Realise that everything that manifests in our external reality, ie everything you experience in your life, is reflected by what is on the inside. We create our own reality.
- Rethink your beliefs about reality, your perceptions on situations, your attitude to the world/humanity and cease limiting behaviours. It will allow you to take control of your life for the better by being the storywriter of it.
Love, blessings and godspeed. Don’t be your own worst enemy.
From Zero (my own hero)